Being a writer, or
really an artist of any kind, is difficult in myriad ways. Besides the lack of
money, because the arts are continually undervalued, you have the constant
rejection, and the relentless plague of self doubt. If you’re an accountant,
you do your job: you prepare a balance sheet, you make financial statements for
a company, but that work is not tied up with the accountant’s internal thoughts
and feelings. The balance sheet does not carry a small bit of the accountant’s
soul with it. There is no place where the personality and beliefs of the
accountant are incorporated into the work she produces and sends out into the
world.
This is not the
case for writers. Everything I write has a part of me attached to it. This is
why rejection of a piece of writing or a bad critique of a book can be so
painful. It is as if those are judgements of me as a person, or at least a part
of me.
The other thing
about writing is that there is no one way. People can point out what they like
and what they don’t like. You might judge writing by correct grammar and
punctuation, the conventionally correct way the words are used, but others may
find such things unimportant, even insulting to the concept of good writing.
Another person might like highly descriptive writing, while another finds such
writing unpalatable. No one can pin down good writing. No one can say: write like this. Every writer writes her
own way. That’s the way she must write. I suppose the way can be improved on,
to some extent, but a writer’s voice is hers. To try on another’s will ring
false in even the most amateur of ears.
A person can love
John Steinbeck’s writing and Ben Okri’s at the same time and yet they are so
different from each other, like a good steak and a glass of exceptional wine, each lovely but not comparable at all. Still each is considered good writing. Each
can exist; they do not compete on any direct level. They are too different for
that. This is how writers and writing are. This is how short stories and novels
are. They are different and unique. They are diverse. The way the tools: the
words, the grammar, the punctuation, the ideas— are expressed, can never be
replicated. Each piece of writing is
pulled from the writer carrying bits of skin and blood, microscopic portions of
the writer’s DNA, the scent of their thoughts and history. This is important.
It is maybe the most important thing about the entire art form.
Good writing
cannot be captured in a net. It is not if the writing is ever published. It is
not if the writer collects accolades and slips of paper posing as judgements on
excellence. In the end, good writing is about truthfulness to that
unadulterated voice. Good writing is about honesty to the story. Good writing
should not look outward at who is viewing the process, who will judge the end-product.
Good writing must hurt a little bit. And good writing must be like a
fingerprint.
I believe this, I
do, and yet it is hard to close out the world. It is hard to read a beautiful
book and not wish that you could write in that way. To read a short story and not
feel as if you will never find your own words to create such loveliness. To not
be discouraged and pushed off track by the world that feeds your writing.
We all want to be
seen as a success. The problem with writing is the definition of that word. I
suppose that is the problem with all of the arts. We need to find a way to
adjust our own minds to accept that success comes in so many kinds of packages,
with so many kinds of labels. For writers, the packaging is as diverse and as ever-changing
as the people we meet and the days that pass. The writing should only be judged
against yesterday’s writing, against the truth, against the elimination of all
false gods. Judged for the clarity between writer and reader so that the truth
of the story can be recreated in the other’s mind.
It’s a difficult
road this writer’s road. Take it with caution and be a little bit kind to
yourself if you veer off in the wrong direction. Maybe it is the right one but
only it has been waiting for you, that certain person to walk its way, to wear
down the grass and clear the thorns so that the magic waiting there can be
found.
(This first appeared in my column It's All Write in the 28 September, 2015 issue of Mmegi)